Independent Project 10
2021-2022
Conditions of Being Human
Conditions of Being Human
Final Outcome
My independent project was… hectic, to say the least. There were so many ups and downs, I thought I was going to lose my mind on some days. But something that surprised me was how anticlimactic everything felt when this project was over. There was so much buildup to this moment where I would finish everything and be done with this. In my mind, I thought it would be relieving, or remorseful, or prideful. But after everything was said and done, all it felt like was “oh, it’s over. Isn’t that neat? Well time to move on”. I hoped that it would feel more significant, but turns out it was just an ordinary task, just on a bigger scale. Which is why it feels a little strange for me to be showcasing everything in such an exaggerated manner. In my head, it’s kind of like, why am I making such a big deal out of something so simple? Technically, I understand it. We just spent two full months putting hours upon hours of work together for this. Why shouldn’t we commemorate that? Why shouldn’t we show that off? But it still feels strange. Maybe it’s just that I’m not fully satisfied with how my project ended up. I have always known that I would do photography for my independent project, but to say that I didn’t expect everything to go the way that it did is an understatement. For the better part of my process, it really just felt like everything that could go wrong, did. From technological errors to traditional art mistakes, anything and everything I did felt like a setback. The whole time I was thinking, “wow, why did I ever choose to do this?”. I would be lying if I said that I was completely happy with how everything turned out, and even now, I can’t help but look at my project and see everything that I could have done differently or made better. I know I was working outside of my comfort zone, even if it was still in photography. But despite all that, I finished it all. My independent project is complete and it represents an ideology that I believe in. It was originally meant to show the different stages of life, but at some point, I ended up changing what my project represented to human diversity. However, I’ve found that even if I changed that part, the original, deeper meaning stayed true. We are all at different stages of life. We all have different experiences and minds. But no matter our individuality, we are all still human. Before this project, I was much less used to a controlled environment in my photography, much more “take photos RIGHT NOW and check it later or you’re gonna miss the shot and it’s gonna be gone forever”. After experiencing a controlled environment, I’ve determined that they both have their ups and downs. While being in an uncontrolled environment can be stressful, it can also be exhilarating. They are completely different but I love and thrive in them both.
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